My puppy and I, Mary, found a safe place and a loving community in Austin, but I’m struggling to find work. I have been able to pay for January’s rent in Atlanta, travel expenses, and my car payment since December with the help of folk like you, and I’m forever grateful. The work I’ve been able to get has not helped much, and I’m again in need of help. I have no money for rent(although the people I’m living with have been very understanding so far), and bill collectors are calling and threatening to send my case to collections. I haven’t been able to afford flea or heartworm medication for my dog, and the stress, combined with the work I’m doing and help I’m attempting to get for PTSD has made every day a struggle.
Help if you can. If not, thanks for reading and spreading!
Enakai needs your help
In December my four year relationship ended, my employment ended, and I was hospitalized against my will. I’m down to my last $40. Like most folks of color, I hate asking for help, but with no family and no money coming in, I’m desperate. I’ve been selling things on ebay and etsy, trying to make money any way I can, and applying for jobs, but I have to admit that I need help. I still have to pay $175 on a traffic ticket I’ve paid half of, first and last month’s rent for the new place I move, and $400 to drive across country. This brings it to a little over 1500, so I’m asking for that amount and hoping that I’ll be able to get enough from the side jobs I’m doing to cover food and anything else that comes up. If people are able to lend instead of donate, that would be preferable. There’s also a donation link for paypal on my blog.
A short version of my story is below, for anyone who cares:
My family life was always abusive and unstable, which meant that up until the age of 11 I was regularly homeless, starving, or subjected to violence and sexual assault. After that, I lived with my father, whose neglect was welcomed over what I’d come from. Shortly after coming out as a lesbian I was raped for the second time at 13, and my father decided that I was either lying or bringing it on myself and institutionalized me. After I got out, he moved me to Georgia, in part for the better job opportunities for a black man in Atlanta, and in part to avoid the rape trial. His girlfriend soon kicked me out for making a necklace that said, “dyke,” and I lived with friends, worked, and eventually bought a $100 car to live in.
If it weren’t for the help of some friends and a couple high school teachers I can’t even imagine where I’d be, but they helped me stay safe, and encouraged me to graduate and apply to colleges. I got a full scholarship, and was able to move into dorms, giving me a place to stay during the school year. Without family, and with loosing a lot of the support from high school, college was overwhelming. The addictive personality I’ve struggled with since childhood took over, and I was soon doing a lot of coke. Eventually I switched to meth and stopped attending classes. Luckily, a professor stepped in and encouraged me to go to a rehab for homeless women, where I stayed for 2 years.
At 24 I graduated college, took a job as a case manager for people with developmental disabilities, and settled into my first real home. It’s the first place I was ever allowed to decorate, the first place that felt mine. I’ve lived here for 3 years now, and it’s the longest I’ve ever stayed anywhere. In December my relationship ended due to my white partner’s racism. It was devastating, losing the family and home I’d worked so hard to build. Things got very dark, and I considered suicide. Instead, I was involuntarily institutionalized for 2 days where I was mistreated and misgendered, exacerbating the hopelessness I was feeling. I got out feeling no better, but as the days have passed I’ve been reminded by friends and loved ones of my strength and purpose. I want to live again.
It’s time to move on, though. While I love the south, it doesn’t feel like home to me, and having gotten a glimpse of what that can feel like, I’m going to find it again. Help if you can. If not, thanks for reading and spreading!